Wednesday, January 04, 2006

have you ever

have you ever felt enormous
like a mighty redwood
catching the sun rays
as you firmly stand tall?

have you ever felt weightless
like a gust of cool breeze
nothing can stop you
no-no worries at all

have you ever been reminded
of a helium balloon
there is nothing
that is going to hold you down

have you ever felt like headlines
of the fresh front page news
cause your name
is the talk of the town

and have you ever held your fantasy
in both hands, clutching tight
hoping that when you open your eyes
everything will turn out all right?

have you ever?

24 comments:

Rivky said...

do you make money on the google thing?

s.J. said...

i dunno.
but it was cramping my style, so it went.

Anonymous said...

hi soapie,

my first ever poem.
want your feedback
hope you don't care it's posted on your blog.

h'-ette

---
i thought i was ok with it.
i'm not.
i'm not and i don't like it.
and there's nothing i can do about it.
i feel.... i can't, i don't know what i feel.
i'm annoyed that i can't place a name on my feelings.
i'm hurt and jealous and ashamed and annoyed that i feel all that.

i need
i don't know what i need
i want
i know what i want
i want to know that i might be able to get what i want
one day
i want to feel secure again
i want to know that no matter how hard i pray
it won't change anything if it's not for the good... that everything happens for a reason and even if i pray for it, He won't change his mind if it's not for my best.

it's too late. and i'm sad. disappointed. in pain.

i want
him
back

s.J. said...

nice.
you should post it on h.
or if you're uncomfortable with that, why not make your own blog and post it?
give s/o/ else a chance to appriciate it as well.
think what would have happened if j.k. rowling never transfered her story from napkin to notebook.
apply it here.

Anonymous said...

not on h. he is there. too dense to realise prolly.

s.J. said...

so either tell him in a way he'll understand, or start a blog, or you can keep harboring that sorrow(?) inside.
your choice.

Rivky said...

oh boy. I clicked on one of your links and I think that I'm traumatized for life. it was really horrible. and why do they do it with purlply pinks and tellitubies type music. sick, people don't really find that amusing, do they?

Rivky said...

how does this work if I want to respond to h'ette's poem I guess I comment here. its a hard life being a girl, and I don't know cause I never had a situation like that with a guy, but you conveyed your feelings into that poem. good job on the poem

Rivky said...

saopy (3 comments in a row, I must really like you). I need your help on someting and h.com is down and you don't have an e-mail contact. caould you e-mail me back if you come on tonight? please? you can link to my e-mail from my profile, but if you can't its my sn at yahoo.com todah rabah

;iulu said...

SOAPMAN- you seriously have to do some illustrative work for your blog. It's begging for it. please. have pity, save us from stock photos..purty please show us some drawings?? :(

s.J. said...

trixies86-
what do you mean????
htf is a great edumacational experience. especially for the little ones.
what did you find offensive?

s.J. said...

flo(dot dot thingy)r-
i'm trying but my scanner is truly screwed up.
don't think i haven't been trying though

s.J. said...

redundant

Anonymous said...

Would you post it in the BY Locker Room? In the BYLR only members of the chabura can see what you post (so that means no guys will be seeing it, so you don't have to worry about being recognized). PM one of the female mods about getting in and she can give you more info about who to contact.

Anonymous said...

i am already there.

i cant post it. even though part of me wants him to see it, part of me wants to close that chapter of life for good.

Anonymous said...

:(

I guess I can understand that.

Life hurts sometimes. For some people, sometimes is more often than others.

(((HUG)))

;iulu said...

s [dot] j [dot]-

scanner working yet? If not can you take some head-on pics and upload them?


p.s. the 'dotties' on top of my name are easily achieved by hitting alt+u, letting go then hit 'o'

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;iulu said...

wtf

that give you one dot not two. and that's mid-line not over

s.J. said...

period. whatever

Rivky said...

I actually wasn't offended. just traumatized for life. its one of those horrible picts in my head that makes me shudder. how do you feel having put one of those into my head? I think psycho has a poem about them- oh that was insomnia, I just understood it as that.

s.J. said...

how do i feel?
great, i guess...

Rivky said...

and when I pm you from the psycho ward?

s.J. said...

i'll wave from down the hall.