Thursday, April 27, 2006

undo the restraints...

popping pills
eating glass
stainless steel
smoking grass

if i had a dime for everytime i wanted to get away
i'd have all the dimebags i crave by now

i finish rewinding all this shit up, some jackass pushes play
got to unplug this game, but got to first know how.

i'll smash my head gainst the screen till something breaks
- i don't care which
and you can write on my tombstone
mother nature is a bitch

love to shut the world up permanently
i'd cut their throats out
then hear them try to shout
'be happy!' -hmm, looks like you could use some surgery...
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give feed back.
i'm buzzed, does it rhyme and rhythem?

35 comments:

Rivky said...

*wince*
yoysh. you sound buzzed. what does buzzed mean?

s.J. said...

wasted/plastered/high/etc.

Rivky said...

thats what I thought. I just wasn't sure you used stuff like that. I'm nieve, remember.

smb said...

Oy, the world can be tough.

hope you feel better

s.J. said...

caffeine deprivation, too much smoke inhalation, simple frustration- they all bring me there.

s.J. said...

well, sorta...

None available said...

s.J. - you need a good walk in the sun.

Have you ever read some poem by Rabbi Judah Ha'Levi? He has some bitter exclamations which might stimulate you into another perspective.
Here's a few lines. Seemed relevant:
"I Cry out to God with a melting heart
and knees that strike against each other,
While anguish is in all loins,
On a day when the oarsmen are astounded at the deep,
When even the pilots find not their hands.
How shall I be otherwise, since I, on a ship's deck,
Suspended between the waters and the heavens,
Am dancing and tossed about?"

And who the hell cares about rhymes?

s.J. said...

deep.

i suppose everone's got their method of dealing with life.

(no more walks. i just did that yesterday)

None available said...

I suggested a walk since it's one of the methods I know is almost foolproof, and improves a state of mind.

s.J. said...

s/t you just feel/want-to-be miserable.
and all the walking brings you lower

Scraps said...

To address the technical points first--the rhyming scheme isn't consistent, but it is there. The rhythm is irregular, but I can follow it.

I'm sorry that life is being so rough on you right now. We all need to get away sometimes....

*sigh*

s.J. said...

scraps- thanks

anon- i wish i knew more people like you.

socialworker/frustrated mom said...

Good stuff! sorry to see you in that state though. All the zing went away so fast?

Rivky said...

tomboy is right about walks, any I know what you mean about wanting to stay down. but is it right? hope you snap out soon.

Rivky said...

sj, why sn#2, does it have a blog attached?

the sabra said...

i don't think ur feelings are so unusual. you just know how to articulate better than most.

b'hatzlacha.

the sabra said...

o and showers always calm me down :)

s.J. said...

s.w/f.m.- ahhh. the upsers and downsers in life.

trixies- beginning of s/t that didn't work out.

sabra- thanx- but i usually get drowsy from a good shower. and sleeping isn't ALWAYS the answer.

socialworker/frustrated mom said...

Yeah, wish the ups were more than the downs.

s.J. said...

i guess...

s.J. said...

: D
(took the words out of my mouth.)

s.J. said...

alrighty then.
i'll remember that.

Anonymous said...

update < gasp > please.

im dying here slowly [literally]








psp- yes i can spell my own name. just..um..didn't want to po the ladies..

s.J. said...

in the near future, my slightly demented friend.

got to get some dw40 for the old noggin.

Anonymous said...

i have duct-tape in my emergency kit in case it goes the other way..

s.J. said...

ha.
thanks.

ggggg said...

wow. sounds like you can use some chillin'

s.J. said...

care to give me a few pointers?

;iulu said...

still my fave rant to date. been looping through my head forever.

s.J. said...

mind control, phase one: complete

;iulu said...

make it stop, make it stop!!

s.J. said...

bwahahahaha!

;iulu said...

shitnotthemasonjars.nonononooooo

s.J. said...

don't worry; i've got battery acid this time.
t'll be painless.

s.J. said...

oops?